TGIMFF!

Woke up this morning and I hit a new milestone! I am now in the 180's....189.4 to be exact :-D  yay me! Consistency and my efforts are paying off. This weekend will be spent at Disney, walking around all day so that should be a good calorie burner. I probably won't weigh myself again until my normal check in day on Monday but I'm feeling really good right now. Have a good Friday!

8 Months Until 30...

I know we're now 3 months in the new year (WTH did February go?) but had an epiphany today. Outside of weight loss and a little about weight loss but I have 8 months until Im 30! Yes 30! I've been feeling rather stagnant lately well for awhile on all fronts between my career (if you can call it that), my weight, and my life. So I just wanted to jot down a few things I want to do by 30.

• Wear tights with shorts
• Wear skinny jeans AGAIN
• Go to Paris for my 30th birthday (which ain't happening until I get a new job so...)
• Get a new job and start a career
• Get my income $$$ up *read above*
• Get a boyfriend...I haven't been in a relationship in so long. I really need to take it slow the next time. I have a tendency to move to fast and end up w/o a boyfriend.
• Get my passport
• And finally....
• Reach my goal weight / dress size /body type /(whatever it may be, Im sure I'll know it when I see it).

Welp! That's it. SN: Im up 2 pounds! Yes 2 pounds...my body is holding on to something. It needs to release it. I thought I would hit the 180's this Monday but I dont think its going to happen. Ugh! Good news is Im on a shoe string budget so every meal I eat next week will be homecooked. Lets see how that works out O_o

Realization.

Didn't take a day to put it on, so its going to take more than a day to take it off. Realizations I have to keep remembering. Had to take a rest day today that I didn't want to but my back had been hurting since this morning so I think its best. I'm back down to 191.4 which I'm excited about, 3 pounds away from my lowest weight since July. Which is when my mother passed and I started gaining...and Losing..and  gaining...repeating again. Can't wait until I'm out of the 190's for good. Losing is hard and keeping it off is harder.

Frustrated.

I must admit I've been feeling so defeated. I gain weight, lose weight, gain, lose, and the cycle repeats itself. I was doing really good then I got sick last week and it was back at Day 1. Ugh! I'm really feeling like I can't get past 190. I've done it before...twice over but my body is just not having it this time around. Stuck. It looks like I may to do something extreme to get over this hump. But then again that would only be temporary and I don't have  the willpower so scratch that. I don't know weekday I'm going to do. I'm going to try to workout at a minimum of 3x per week and lay off...minimize the fast food. Ahhhh

werk.

Feeling Ashamed....

Again.  After recommitting myself back to fitness I fell off the wagon again y'all. Between a new job, the holidays, trying to start a business, and adjusting to a new city I haven't been able to stay on track AND on top of that I've lost all motivation. I swear dating is not a positive for me when trying to lose weight. Guys want to feed you and you're enjoying their time mostly around food, because they don't understand, and "baby you look good this way" -its just hard! Now I won't say I'm just eating all willy nilly..ok maybe I am LOL but I do have my healthy habit days so luckily I've been at least at the same weight which is good for me but it would be even better if I was at my goal and maintaining. After all the weight I've lost I can't believe 35 pounds is keeping me from my goal. I need to lose 5 pounds 7 times! I can do it...eventually.

Mission Accomplished!

5 Days 3 Workouts! Feeling real accomplished right now. I set a goal and I reached it, now Im praying for the willpower to continue to eat right and exercise to tone. I really want to gain more muscle and lose more fat. By any means necessary...well almost any means. I've seen people do juice fast, HCG, only eat non fat cottage cheese for days just to lose weight and right now Im not there. And Im not knocking their diet hustle but I tried and I've never had the willpower to hold off for that long. I did 3 Firm workouts with 2 days of 15 HIIT workouts from Turbo Fire. I noticed that my lethargy hasn't been bad this week and I've had more energy, even as I type Im ready to go workout again. Don't want to overdo myself but I just want to do because I feel like doing it. Now I see why I enjoyed working out for 2 hours at a time during one point of my WL journey. The feeling of feeling good and also the feeling of fitting into more clothes when I go shopping which I LOVE to do when Im at a good weight. Hopefully I can continue this momentum and be closer to my goal by my burfday =) December 11th if you were curious. Uh oh the devil aka my neighbor is home...preparing for all the rawkus.